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There u c is raining again...I just don't understand y can't the sky stop pouring for a day? Y everyday must rain? N y is it always happen when I'm about to go out? Y always like that? Is there a hole that I can help to cover it with a plaster so that you can just stop pouring for a day? Just a day only ma, so difficult meh? Wanna rain cannot rain earlier or later one ar? Must rain at this hour meh?

Don't k, I will still go out and make myself epi even tho there will be thunderstorm, lightning, flood or landslide later... Last week already not successful bcos of rain and today again the same? No way, I will still be out of the house....

Time to shower, get dress and challenge the rain later...

Quote..

I came across this quote in one of Bluto's posting in his blog and I really think the quote is true...Here's how the quote goes:

Problems in relationship occur because each person is concentrating on what is missing in the other person - Dr. Wayne Dyer

Don't you think is true? Y issit human being keep on concentrating, searching and digging what's missing in the other person? Why can't they just look at the bright, good and positive side of that person? Concentrate on the good rather than the bad leads to a healtier relationship... Unless, that person with some negative intention then lain story lar...

The End of Today...The Start of My Bluezzzz....

Argghhhh....I really hate today. Today is my last day of staycation and I did not complete my itinerary for both Monday & Tuesday.... Supposed to be at Kokopelli y'day but I got to know they close on every Monday (wtf! where got restaurant close one??!!. C lar, wanna indulge a piece of lovely cake pun susah...So I ended up yum char with my girlfrens at Old Town...At least the day ended with something....

I arranged myself to be at Kokopelli today around 8.00-8.30pm li tat...Was really so looking forward to try their cakes...and a fren will oso join me there. So I happily went shower and get ready to go out... I was really about to get into my car when this fren called and informed me that place hujan....Arggghhhh, I was like wtf??!! Not again??!!....My fren asked me not to come since the rain was kinda heavy there but there's no single drop of rain in Cheras...My heart asked me to proceed and go ahead... But my fren don't feel like going... I tot of still going there by myself but later decided to listen to ppl's advise lar.... So I stayed home and suddenly my place here rain like shit dropping from the sky...Haiz, spoilt my day oni...Was really so disappointed ler, arranged donno how many times liao and still no chance to go....so wait lor...

And tomorrow is another of my most hated day cos I will have to resume work...I hate it! I hate It!...Tomorrow I will haf to go thru Wednesday Blue from 8.30am-5.30pm... It is really a painful kind of thing...Can that be escaped?

I still want my Kokopelli.....

CSS & Ethan - Same Species!!

I actually have a guy fren that we keep in touch all these while via msn. He is a Singaporean from Malaysian+Singaporean parentage... He is a well build young man at 30 years old this year... His name is Ethan. I can't really remember how I know him and for how long, I think 4-5 years ago??...

Ethan reminded me of CSS all the time especially these few days when he told me bout his ex. Ethan and CSS are very alike...I mean their personality and characteristics...Both are very self-centred person and luv themselves more than anything and anyone else... Recently, Ethan met his ex in a gathering..She brought along her new bf and as expected Ethan was very uneasy and trying to figure out if that guy she brought is her new bf...(does that really matter if he is her new bf especially Ethan dumped her like 3 years ago??)It has been 3 years and i think it's normal if she has a new bf...But this Ethan fella tried his very best to confirm this and YES, he got d answer when he saw it with his own round eyes both of them were holding hands during the gathering...

He was damn uneasy the whole night...And he can't even sleep at all when he got home. He supposed to be working today, but he decided to hide himself at home thinking silly stuff...At last, he knot tahan and sent her a sms telling her the gathering was great....She did replied with a question, 'How do u find him?'...Ethan said, 'Ok lar'....of cos his 'Ok lar' was replied in a very 'emm kam yuen' manner...

The reason he dump her becos he cannot stand certain of her behaviour. His ex is a very cheerful kind of person who laff very loud and aggressive...This is what he dislike about her...I think Ethan is either abnormal or some of his urat got tangled...

We chatted again now via msn and I just think he is another CSS who is waiting for a decent and demure girl like a princess to appear... Here's our conversation, still ongoing even I'm posting this now:

Sunshine through the rain says:
I AM FEELING VERY TIRED AMANDA
Amanda says:
sleep
Sunshine through the rain says:
I DUNNO IF I CAN FACE IT AGAIN
Sunshine through the rain says:
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS
Sunshine through the rain says:
I WANT SOMEONE TO SHOW ME
Sunshine through the rain says:
I WANT TO FEEL WHAT LOVE .....I KNOW SOMEONE WHO COULD SHOW ME
Amanda says:
no one
Amanda says:
except urself
Sunshine through the rain says:
MY EX MAYBE CAN SHOW ME
Sunshine through the rain says:
i looking at the 5pm sms
Sunshine through the rain says:
that i said i sending
Sunshine through the rain says:
total 5 sms
Sunshine through the rain says:
her 1st sms is longer
Sunshine through the rain says:
next 4 r v short
Sunshine through the rain says:
yup
Sunshine through the rain says:
help me sell
Sunshine through the rain says:
ok
Sunshine through the rain says:
thanks
Sunshine through the rain says:
so short
Sunshine through the rain says:
when i type so long
Sunshine through the rain says:
i think she is outside
Sunshine through the rain says:
n busy?
Sunshine through the rain says:
perhaps w new bf
Sunshine through the rain says:
having fun?
Amanda says:
so?
Sunshine through the rain says:
enjoying her life?
Amanda says:
if u can provide her happiness, then let others do
Amanda says:
can't
Sunshine through the rain says:
maybe having a nice dinner
Sunshine through the rain says:
sigh
Sunshine through the rain says:
u r right
Sunshine through the rain says:
i cant give her happiness
Sunshine through the rain says:
n i made her cry so many time
Amanda says:
yeh
Amanda says:
n the thing is, u oni feel this way after meeting her that day
Amanda says:
if u dont u will not haf such feeling.
Sunshine through the rain says:
yes
Amanda says:
it's normal....human being tend to regret things they let go...
Sunshine through the rain says:
maybe i just cant bear someone else touching her
Sunshine through the rain says:
maybe i regret it now till someone possessing her
Sunshine through the rain says:
before that she is SINGLE
Sunshine through the rain says:
available
Sunshine through the rain says:
free
Sunshine through the rain says:
now taken
Amanda says:
they never appreciate when they have it and oni realised how much they love that person after letting go
Sunshine through the rain says:
so maybe i feel upset
Sunshine through the rain says:
i let go
Sunshine through the rain says:
but i dun feel upset
Sunshine through the rain says:
i dont understand why now i feel upset
Amanda says:
then u cannot blame anyone except urself...
Sunshine through the rain says:
when i realise she got bf
Amanda says:
u were the one letting her go
Sunshine through the rain says:
why will i upset when she hav bf and not upset when i dump her?
Sunshine through the rain says:
yes
Sunshine through the rain says:
and she want to get back w me
Amanda says:
so no one u can blame
Sunshine through the rain says:
i dont want
Amanda says:
so, ur fault
Sunshine through the rain says:
but why now then i feel sad
Amanda says:
u were the one tat dump her
Sunshine through the rain says:
not that time
Amanda says:
cos u regretted
Amanda says:
n u oni realised it now how much u luv her
Amanda says:
which is too late
Amanda says:
well, is just a process...
Sunshine through the rain says:
sigh... why would i realised it if i see her with a guy
Sunshine through the rain says:
when i see her normally i dont feel this way
Sunshine through the rain says:
why
Amanda says:
cos she is now taken
Sunshine through the rain says:
coz she had been POSSESSED by someone
Amanda says:
u r too selfish...
Sunshine through the rain says:
why will i feel like this?
Sunshine through the rain says:
yes i think i am
Sunshine through the rain says:
i am selfish coz i rather see her single rite
Sunshine through the rain says:
so i wun upset
Amanda says:
just becos u dont like her certain not good behaviour, u think u cannot live with her forvert
Amanda says:
n u never know she may find u the same n becos she loves u, so she accepted ur bd behaviour oso
Amanda says:
but u didn't accept hers
Amanda says:
u luv urself more than her
Amanda says:
u want the best for urself
Amanda says:
but are u the best for her?
Sunshine through the rain says:
ya
Sunshine through the rain says:
she said i am very self centred
Sunshine through the rain says:
everything revolves ard me me me
Sunshine through the rain says:
n yet she want to be with me
Amanda says:
yes...
Sunshine through the rain says:
but after sometime i realised i cannot
Sunshine through the rain says:
and dump her becoz ME cant live w her certain behaviour
Sunshine through the rain says:
its ME
Sunshine through the rain says:
selfish ME
Amanda says:
tat's y, u think u cannt, n she can? but she make it can
Amanda says:
cos when u luv a person, u luv n accept her wholly
Amanda says:
look at her gd side and live with it..
Amanda says:
just because of certain black dirt in her, u dump her
Amanda says:
ever look at urself?
Amanda says:
r u wholly w/o a single black dots?
Amanda says:
r u that perfect?
Amanda says:
n how many couples in the world are perfect?
Amanda says:
are they 100% meant for each other?
Amanda says:
r they really so 100% compatible?
Amanda says:
love is about acceptance ...
Sunshine through the rain says:
i dunno
Sunshine through the rain says:
but i dun care
Amanda says:
if u cannot accept, how do u luv her?
Sunshine through the rain says:
i only care about myself
Sunshine through the rain says:
i dun care about others
Amanda says:
that is y...
Amanda says:
u r too selfish
Sunshine through the rain says:
yes
Sunshine through the rain says:
i realised
Amanda says:
n u luv urself more than anyone else
Sunshine through the rain says:
thats why i feel terrible now
Sunshine through the rain says:
n not when i dump her
Sunshine through the rain says:
or even 6 mth after that
Amanda says:
yeah, n u r the same as my ex...
Sunshine through the rain says:
n seeing her outside or etc
Amanda says:
very selfish
Amanda says:
think of himself
Amanda says:
luv himself very much
Sunshine through the rain says:
until i find the gentle n demure girl
Amanda says:
u got expectation, ppl oso haf one lar
Sunshine through the rain says:
but i dont care
Sunshine through the rain says:
coz i care bout self
Sunshine through the rain says:
sigh
Sunshine through the rain says:
i just want teh best for myself
Amanda says:
then make sure u can provide the best for the girl
Sunshine through the rain says:
i am a very terrible guy
Amanda says:
yes, u r
Sunshine through the rain says:
tell me what should i do
Amanda says:
go get a gun n shoot urself
Sunshine through the rain says:
,,,,,,,,,


See, don't u think he is another CSS? Age pun sama... Arggghhhh....MEN=TERRIBLE...

Me & My Hair

Aha....at last I got my hair cut short last Friday. I used to have short hair until 10 years old, then I keep my hair long until last Friday lar I decided to cut it off... that was my first try and I will trim it again when CNY is approaching+some colour as well... Of cos no la la colour lar...and I will cut a lil of my fringe as well....